Answering My Calling
When I left New York City, I told myself I was
done with music and the music industry. For the
3rd time in my life I had come within an arm's
reach of a record contract from a major label
only to have things fall apart at the last minute.
I couldn't take it anymore and I was done.
My wife, Mollie, and I moved into an old farmhouse
in upstate New York and I began a career as a
carpenter. I had some talent, and enjoyed building
things that either stood or not; nothing subjective
about framing. But I was clumsy and got hurt quite
often, one time shooting a nail through two of
my fingers, attaching them to a two by four. Mollie
asked me to quit before I killed myself, but with
a newborn baby boy, I needed a way to make income
right a way.
Fortuitously, while looking for health insurance
for my son, I came upon a job opening, which,
as much as it scorched my being, I took, needing
the money quite badly. By the end of three years,
I had sold enough insurance to buy the house we
lived in and have enough extra for anything we
Unfortunately, my health declined at a rapid
rate as an overwhelming sadness overtook my state
of mind. Through our five years since we'd left
the city, I'd written a few songs, because they
came to me and writing down what flows through
me is what I've always done. I had no intention
of doing anything with these songs, except play
them for my own pleasure, but something kept nagging
at me to do more and the thought of selling insurance
the rest of my days depressed me to no end.
It wasn't long before my health had deteriorated
so bad I wound up in the hospital with a fever
fluctuating over 104 with the doctors having no
idea what was wrong with me. But, I knew. I'd
let my spirit die and the body was following.
Either I changed my life or it would end. So,
against doctor's orders, I checked myself out
of the hospital, found a spiritual healer and
a few weeks later, when the fever had dropped,
quit my job, sold my house and started out for
We never got there. Coming down the Blue Ridge
Parkway we found the city of Asheville. We liked
it enough to want to stay for a little while.
A week, turned into a month, a month into a year.
We bought a house and set up a home. I began working
as a computer programmer; songs kept coming every
once in a while, I'd write them down, but just
put them away, still not able to face the music,
so to speak.
The sadness turned into depression
and unable to live with it, Mollie moved out.
I needed help and found it at the Center For Spiritual
Living. I received counseling from Dr. John Waterhouse
and comfort and hope from the Sunday talks given
by himself and his wife, Rev. Barbara Waterhouse.
They needed someone to help with sound on Sundays,
so I volunteered to do that. I brought my son,
Isaac with me, and he helped out, too, playing
one of the chakra bowls at the beginning of the
A few years had passed when the
music director of the church gave notice. It came
to me in my dreams; leading a band for the Center.
Barbara talked about having a band and I knew
everything there was to know about putting one
together. Still, I could feel the pain of my past
experiences and didn't want to face it.
The dreams continued. This band
was for service, this band was for God. Before,
it had all been about my ego and my success. This
was for the community I loved and lived in. After
the January first fire walk at the Center, I had
another dream. This one included the name of the
band, "Walk Across Fire". I couldn't fight my
calling any longer.
I had a talk with John and Barbara,
who enthusiastically embraced the idea. The band
came together quickly. Over the next few months
I wrote ten new songs, all in alignment with the
Science of Mind philosophy. Members of the congregation,
spoke to meI often about making a CD.
Once again, the force was too
great to fight. Something larger than myself was
leading my way. I stayed music director at the
Center for 5 years. Almost every week we got a
standing ovation for the music we play, the music
The CD has been well received
and gained some national attention. Terry Cole-Whittaker,
the best-selling author has endorsed it and plays
it at her speaking engagements. 3 other CD's have
been completed and also sell nationally. I am
in the middle of recording a 4th. In 2011, I'll
be teaching a workshop at Unity Village called
"What is a New Thought Song". This is
the happiest time of my life. The music that flows
through me is changing people's lives. My calling
has been answered.